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27th August 2011

2:03 am Hey. 2:03 am Are you awake? 2:06 am I’ve been thinking…

Oh bestie. Sorry, I was asleep 8:17 am

8:17am No worries. How are you?

I’m okay. My mother and stepdad are finally talking 10:56 am You? 10:56 am

10:57 am Terrible. I’m tired of this. 10:58 am It’s not worth it. 10:59 am I want to leave.

Sigh. You really should talk to HER you know 11:03 am

11:04 am I know, I know. 11:04 am But…

Brb 11:04 am

11:04 am Would she even listen? She’ll think I’m crazy. 11:05 am Okay. 9:20 pm Hey. How was the rest of your day?

Cool, cool. I went out with the bae. Yours? 9:23 pm

9:24 pm More of the same really.

You brood too much. Just be happy 9:24 pm

9:25 pm This is all just rubbish.

Lol. You shouldn’t think like that. Cheer yourself up 9:25 pm Go out with your guys 9:26 pm There’s a party this weekend 9:26 pm

9:27 pm I can’t. I really can’t. 9:27 pm And crowds depress me by the way. 9:29 pm I just can’t help it. I think I’m losing my mind. Why won’t it end? I know you’re tired of hearing this and I wish I wasn’t insane. I know you’ll eventually grow tired of me. I know I cling but I try. I try really hard. It’s a never ending cycle. I just don’t get why I can’t pull everything together. I haven’t seen my dad for three years you know. And strangely, I don’t remember that last time I saw him. It’s strange. I have nothing. I wish I could find a way. It’s just so dark in my world. It all doesn’t mean anything you know. Why suffer through all this rubbish for nothing? The world, it eats us alive. I don’t think I can ever be normal like you guys. I love you so much you know. I really do. I wish I could stop all this and be the friend I should be. I owe you everything. I could lay my life down for you, you know. SHE doesn’t care about me. You’re the only thing I have. I don’t know if you understand what I’m saying. 9:31 pm I can’t even make sense.

TL;DR 9:45 pm 😛 9:45 pm

9:46 pm 😦

Lol. You’re weird 11:47 pm Brb 11:47 pm

11:48 pm Okay.

28th August 2011

2:03 am Hey. 2:03 am Are you awake? 2:03 am I’ve been thinking.

Hey 11:24 am Want to go to the mall today? 11:24 am Lol. You and your drama 2:17 pm Pick up la! 2:51 pm Don’t tell me you’ve been cutting again 3:15 pm

29th August 2011

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